pretty boy song lyrics

I lie awake at night
See things in black and white
I only got you inside my mind
You know you have made me blind

I lie awake and pray
That you will look my way
I have all this longing in my heart
I knew it right from the start

Oh my pretty pretty boy
I love you
Like I never ever loved no one before you
Pretty pretty boy of mine
Just tell me you love me too
Oh my pretty pretty boy
I need you
Oh my pretty pretty boy I do
Let me inside
Make me stay
Right beside you

I used to write your name
And put it in a frame
And sometimes I think I hear you call
Right from my bedroom wall

You stay a little while
And touch me with your smile
And what can I say to make you mine
To reach out for you in time

Oh my pretty pretty boy
I love you
Like I never ever loved no one before you
Pretty pretty boy of mine
Just tell me you love me too
Oh my pretty pretty boy
I need you
Oh my pretty pretty boy I do
Let me inside
Make me stay
Right beside you

Oh pretty boy
pretty boy
pretty boy
Say you love me too

Oh my pretty pretty boy
I love you
Like I never ever loved no one before you
Pretty pretty boy of mine
Just tell me you love me too
Oh my pretty pretty boy
I need you
Oh my pretty pretty boy I do
Let me inside
Make me stay, ooo right beside you.

my part time job

holidays had begun and i was as usual aimless trying to find means to kill time.my uncle called me up with this offer in his exhibition. rise ans shine company delaying in horticulture tissue culture and flori culture had also put up their stalls.and being fluent in Hindi and not Tamil they wanted a translator who could run the show. and voila i was there the next day with them may8.when i stepped inside i had my own doubts as to how i would suit the job. if i really will do it without getting bored.if i would be able to mingle with professionals with their management degrees and so on..but the moment i met them i was so much at ease with vishwajit and madhuri. and the four days were absolute fun. distributing pamphlets and giving my pep talk about tissue culture bananas.and the different personalities you come across was just mind blowing. some farmers really surprised me by asking questions about genetic engineering involved and they also taught me some points. i would say that exhibition helped me in a lot of ways.and once the show was over i had got a good friend in madhuri and vishwajit and she gave me a chain and an invite to her house. her whole family was also present and adding to the fun was her small kid

• be natural with a smile and anybody would warm up to you
• be very sincere i whatever your work is even if part time
• be patient when handling people
• learn to have fun and also put your all in work
• be open for any kind of opportunity because you never know..it may be something you thoroughly enjoy and get a lot in return
• added to all of this i got paid too :-)

and to this day and in the future those four days will always remain clearly etched and fondly remembered.

MY FIRST EYEBROW TRIMMING EXPERIENCE :-)

Many people told me my eye brows would look even better when properly shaped.my mother, my sister,my friends, classmates,everybody. i thought why not give it a try. its my wretched habit to try and know as much as possible about something that i am about to do to keep me informed and prepared. my friends really frightened me by telling me its gonna hurt a lot the first time your eyes will water a lot.once you start trimming its a life long process though it adds beauty to your eyes its painful.. am the biggest chicken at heart and trembling all through the way to the beauty parlour asked my mum if it would be painful she frightened me even more by telling me it will be thorn pricks.and with a naughty menacing gleeful grin added i am sure you are gonna cry and shout and bring the roofs down.. what worse hell could be there. i felt like a goat about to be sacrificed to the deity when i sat in the plush comfortable couch.begged the beautician to do it slowly.with a sly smile she said sure but cheated me by doing it quick and smooth though. in all it was not as painful as i was frightened into believing and though when i look at myself in the mirror i cant help laughing at the way i look now.
i could only pat myself in victory for i came out without crying:)
three cheers to sowmya ;-) and thus was my first eyebrow trimming adventure :)

a few poems i liked.collected along the way

i came across some poems and i wanted people to know them too.here they are.

1. When i look into your eyes
   your the only one i need in my life
   we've been through so much together
   and i feel like I've known you forever
   
   your the only one for me
   i love you more than you'd ever know or see
   i get a big rush when I'm with you
   & i hope you feel the way that i do
   
   And the way you look at me
   it makes me go crazy
   the way you talk to me
   shows me that our love is true
   
   id give so much for you to just hold me
   your love can completely control me
   you show me your love to me and
   see me from inside and out
   and i feel the same way without a doubt.
2. Sometimes at night,
   When I look to the sky,
   I start thinking of you,
   And then ask myself "why?"
   
   "Why do I love you?"
   I think and smile,
   Because I know,
   The list could run on for mile.
   
   The whisper of your voice,
   The warmth of your touch,
   So many little things,
   Make me love you so much.
   
   The way that your kiss,
   Fills me with desire,
   And how you hold me,
   With the warmth of a fire.
   
   The way your eyes shine,
   When you look at me,
   Lost with you forever,
   Is where I want to be.
   
   The way that I feel,
   When you are by my side,
   A sense of completion,
   And overflowing pride.
   
   The dreams that I dream,
   That all involve you,
   The possibilities that I see,
   The things that we can do.
   
   How you finish the puzzle,
   That lies inside my heart,
   How deep in my soul,
   You are a very important part.
   
   I could go on for days,
   Telling of what I feel,
   But all you really must know is...
   My love for you is real.
3. You are the comfort I run to when I feel alone
   My love for you is true and world wide known
   You are my lover the one I have wished for
   Never have I loved someone this much before
   
   You always there to hold my hand or make me smile
   Each day and night you prove my life is worth while
   I appreciate you so much you're someone I adore
   If we were separated I don't think I'd live anymore
   
   I trust you and respect for all that you're worth
   I love you more than anything on this earth
   I truly believe that you are the one for me
   I'm mad about you, you drive me crazy
   
   Thank you for walking into my precious heart
   Showed me the meaning of love from the start
   You've given me everything to makes my life complete
   You are the reason my hearts skips a beat
   
   I love sharing every moment with you by my side
   I know with my feelings or thoughts I'd never hide
   Promise me for tomorrow and the next days to come
   You won't let go and break our commitment from one
   
   My heart is in your hands as yours is in mine
   Our love is so beautiful now our hearts have combine
   Love is what you mean to me, and you are my life
   I'll give you anything more in this world even be your wife
   
   I have had the time of my life and I owe it all to you
   Our love is based on loyalty, happiness, love and truth
4. There's only one I care for,
   That only one is you,
   I'd give my body, heart, and soul,
   For a life with you.
   
   I know that you've been hurt before,
   And that you're locked up tight,
   But open up your soul to me,
   And I will make it right.
   
   There's nothing that I wouldn't do,
   To live my life right next to you,
   If only I would have the chance,
   To snap out of my enlonged trance.
   
   These words are hard to say,
   For one that is not true,
   But I for one don't like to lie,
   I swear that I love you,
   
   I swear that I will stick by you,
   Through good, or bad, or worse,
   And that from this point on,
   I'll go without remorse.
   
   My heart holds what my hand cannot,
   My love for you is like a knot,
   It twists and turns so many ways,
   As it will till' end of days.
5. I trust you with my heart and everything I own
   Your heart and soul is where I'll always call home
   Sometimes its hard and things don't always go our way
   But our love grows stronger and more beautiful each day
   
   Its true there is bad times maybe worse than the last
   But in time we'll be smiling again quite fast
   I know you'll always be there for me during good and bad
   And I'm sorry that it affects you so much each time I'm sad
   
   My heart will fall for each time I see your face
   With you I could be with forever and no other place
   Baby you're my everything and so much more
   You welcome me in each time I walk through a door
   
   For the rest of our lives we'll be more than a friend
   Sticking by each others side till the very end
   A magical feeling between us two that will last till forever
   The lyrics say it in the song 'we belong together'
6. Your always there for me to help me through my fears, you always comfort me and wipe away my tears, you are my rock the one who keeps me sane, you always talk me out of wanting to run away, you make me feel happy when things don't go my way, your the one that loves me, the one who knows who i am, your everything to me, your my special man. if i lost everything, everything id love you'd be standing there showing me all your love, you really don't know how much you mean to me, i want to tell you everything, i want you to see, my love for you is deep, stronger than the winds, your everything i want, your everything i dream.

EI NEE ROMBA AZHAGA IRUKA !

i happened to watch this movie yesterday ei nee romba azhaga iruka.though the film was not a block buster hit i found it appealing.the concept was exemplary which people should learn.many people have the tendency to hate the person we loved the moment things dont materialize.said jason jordan " True love does not come by finding the perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly."some people tend to fall in love in a haste whatever be the reason and in reality when the partner doesn't second our imaginations, instead of accepting them for what they are we tend to break the relation.there are so many incidents where people try to destroy either themselves or the person who they were in "love" with.when in love they seem to treasure the partner but the moment it ends the person they put all efforts in hating and forgetting is the same person.have people misunderstood what love is?or are they becoming so jealous and blind with rage to forget about sixth sense and humanity?it is true nobody even thinks of break up when they start loving.their relationships may end for any reason.my aim is not to judge with whom the fault is.but the way people should behave when it ends.to do justice to the wonderful concept handled in the movie i can only second the dialogues of the main character "its true our love ends but that doesn't mean our love was not true
and is not necessary that we have to stop loving a person once the relationships ends."i came across a quote by an unknown person but its worth implementing " I've learned in my lifetime so far that you can't help who you fall for and no matter how hard you try and how much it hurts you everyday that you just wanna be with them or just talk to them you never stop trying to make them happy by the little things you say or do because that's what makes your life worth going on for."this is love.what if a person ditches you.you cans till Love them with your heart truly.go on with your life but still be for them when they need you.i believe in it and the movie.
for anybody in love i would say its a perfect movie to watch.:)
remember people tit for tat or hate red or vengeance is never the answer.what these cant do love can and a simple smile can.what if your relationships ends.you can still love :) cheers

CHENNAI - MY SECOND HOME

i am always flooded with loads of emotions at the very mention of the name 'madras' .the city thats always closer to my heart.right from the time i was a kid it always captivated me fascinated me and enthralled me.i love beaches and can spend days together curled up feeling the warm smooth sand caress my skin,the salty breeze wafting though my hair,my spectacles misting up with salt,the embers roaring with the wind when the corns are roasted,chat food items,horoscope,fish,shells.mmmm its like being transported back to the beach.the most visited being marina and besant nagar (fondly called bessy beach by chennaites) with the passing years the quaint old sleepy traditional madras has evolved into fast paced hip hop metro chennai.
the place has given me a lot in life.friends for one. very trust able loving friends.and even more.
being a shopaholic the roads of t.nagar, pantheon road,luzz, spencers,city centre are all paradise.
and for foodies like me the city is loaded with food centres.from the road sides to the taj every morsel is worth the bucks and adds to a new unique mouth watering tempting experience.i cannot go on without adding planet yum gangotree juice shop on greams road..the discotheque s also deserve a mention...the luxurious multiplexes are toppers in the list of relaxers..satyam mayajaal to name..the educational institutes on par with the world add to the feather in the crown.the school,pssss, dav,st.johns so many..iit madras anna university srm and many more.and for people with a religious bend of mind there are ancient beautiful mind blowing temples ,parthasarathy temple,kabalishwarar temple and to note that mahabalipuram is not too far from the city.
the i.t lane can never have a boom tremendous like this with so many Indian and multi national top companies moving base here.and the medical facilities are on par with the best of the world.lower rates for paramedics and medicines make chennai the hot destination among people of the globe.
added to all this is the koovam,landmark, huge hotels,rani meyammai hall,raja muthaia hall,kollywood starts and the industry as such..from any city in the state the trains set for chennai are always full.the article will be incomplete without mentioning the attitude of 'chennaites'..fun loving,adventurous,a perfect mix of tradition and modernity well exposed but rooted to values and ethics.the city also boasts of a long list of sports persons with ample facilities available to shape them.one such is the chinnasamy stadium,.every year december chennai soothes one s heart with its december kacheri s. a true delight to a person with inlination for music.
and to this day i still feel like a kid when i step into the city.for it has given me some precious gifts in life.more than a person can ask for.i would love to be posted here for my work.
all said and done no amount of writing can express the love for chennai - my second home

RECIPE FOR A HAPPY LIFE

it was the year 2000 when the newspaper "the Hindu" was about to start "the quest" a supplement which was filled with articles from school kids.the very first edition of quest ,our school was given the slot and my article appeared in the newspaper.i felt very elated and satisfied as if i had conquered the world.the article i had written is the title of this blog.recipe for a happy life.at 21, having faced my own share of the world i feel the recipe is very important for everybody. which is why am posting it out now.

RECIPE FOR A HAPPY LIFE

INGREDIENTS :-
happiness - 1kg,
helpfulness - 500g,
trust - 1kg,
enthusiasm - 500g,
creativity, independence, intelligence, competitiveness - 250 g each humanity,compassion - 100g

METHOD :-

• take the pan of life. pour in the essence of humanity and compassion.
• to this add happiness and helpfulness.boil till it bubbles with joy and color.
• drain out the ego,jealousy,hatred and anger.
• to this add trust and mix till it blends
• chip in enthusiasm and stir well
• garnish with creativity, independence, intelligence, competitiveness and decorate with confidence
• serve on the plate of love

well people, a simple recipe which when followed can not only make our lives happy and fulfilled but can also make a difference to our loved ones near and dear and strangers even. after all life is not about the years we add to life..it is all about adding life to those years :) what say you? :)

REVIVIING THE PAST

it is generally said reviving the past only makes matters worse.what are you going to gain by doing it people question.there are quotes which says "the past is a foreign country,they do things differently there".i would say we have to revive the past.both good and bad.good to boost up our batteries and the bad to make sure history doesn't repeat itself.once we become adults life becomes so demanding and tiresome and mechanical that it becomes almost impossible for us to think of anything else other than a few minutes relaxation.where is the time to keep pondering when there is so much work to do?mind is a peculiar entity.it works non stop.which is why we always have something popping out suddenly which may be highly irrelevant to the current scenario.even when we sleep which is why we dream.people resort to booze and fag trying to "boost their energy levels" they say.a simpler healthier free option would be reviving our happy moments.our first crush, our struggles to talk to that handsome prince,our first ranks,little prizes,small fights between friends,little nothings that go a long way in shaping a person.the first leaf we preserved,the first peacock feather we pressed,our first bicycle,tuition rides,b' day bashes,school and college mischiefs,annual days cultural s jolly freak outs,what not.try doing it and you will find yourself smiling to yourself.feeling light happy and special. likewise it is also necessary to go through the bad times.not emotionally but using the brain.life s a cycle and the same sort of incidents may happen at a different time by a different person in a different situation.reviving the past helps us in coming to a decision.we will know how to react and how not to screw it up.after all life is all about good and bad experiences. making the most of it is in our hands.else they would not have said “What you need to know about the past is that no matter what has happened, it has all worked together to bring you to this very moment. And this is the moment you can choose to make everything new. Right now.”
yesterday is a history tomorrow is a mystery today is the reality which is why it is called the "present" make the most of it. revive your memories :-)

my judging days :-)

i had just returned from Chennai after meeting my friends when i got a surprise call from one special person Mr.G.Balakrishnan fondly called g.b.sir.wanting me to judge fancy dress contest for kids and the best couple contest.though i was not very sure as to why i was chosen i was excited about the prospect of it.anything new always aroused my interest and the day dawned when i was to the judge..may the 16Th (my birthday too) for fancy dress and may the 17Th for the best couple contest.though the entire experience was sweet and something worth cherishing it was sir s praise that actually made me feel absolutely happy and embarrassed at the same time.and adding insult to injury was the way Austin listened to sir and kept teasing me about it.i just didn't know how to react to both sir and Austin.was both happy and shy.all in all a new wonderful incident .and to see the pictures in the newspapers the next day with a formal title and the way i was addressed really was humorous.
but then to wind up it has given me a lot of exposure and added to my friends humorous envy :-)

few people who mean a lot to me!!!

i was searching for something interesting to write about when i got messages from my friends.then it stuck me.why not write about them?a friend is one who knows us, but loves us anyway,who walks in when the rest of the world walks out.so many people walk in and out of our lives day in and day out.only some of them leave a mark and still stick with you.two such people are aparna and venkat.i would not say i am perfect.but they love me with my flaws and support me through thick and thin.
having known venkat for nearly 8 years from our school days, we have come through our fair share of fights ,misunderstandings ,ego .we have not spoken for even a year continuously.but still we are there for each other in all that we do..he is one person who may appear harsh and rude when talking to us.but deep down its the concern that i should not be hurt.i remember venkat shouting at me when told him about my commitment but i do now realize he wanted to protect me so that i get only the best right kinds person.
the other sweet person is aparna.friends are not about the duration.its about understanding.and she s a fine example for that.its hardly a year since we met but she knows me in and out.
a wonderful person who believes everybody has got the right to be happy and deserve only the best.am so happy to have found a true friend in her.many a times i have come out of difficult situation only after talking to her.a very sensible level headed person who wlays makes me feel special..
i can only second robert alan who said
"The rain may be falling hard outside,
But your smile makes it all alright.
I'm so glad that you're my friend.
I know our friendship will never end."
very true.....P
friends are many like santhosh,vivek ashwin mithra raaga prasad abishek balaji rohini ashish lalith neeraja yogesh and so many people and i would just say this to all of them

True friendship isn't seen with the eyes, it is felt with the heart.
When there is trust, understanding, loyalty, and sharing.
True friendship is a rare feeling, but when it is found
It has profound impact on our well-being, strength, and character.
True friendship does not need elaborate gifts
Or spectacular events in order to be valuable or valued.
To ensure long-lasting quality and satisfaction,
True friendship only needs a few key ingredients:
Undying loyalty, unmatched understanding, unsurpassed trust,
Deep and soulful secrets, and endless sharing.
These ingredients, mixed with personality and a sense of humor,
Can make a friendship last a lifetime!
This is just a thank you, my friend, for all the wonderful and colorful
Special ingredients You've brought to my life!

i love you guys and thanks for being there for me.it matters a lot :)
peace

conflicting emotions!

i notice that emotions and the resulting behaviors of people always tend to be conflicting.
just consider this case
when do we like/love a person? when we like everything or rather most of the things about them.and why do we get angry? when people don't fulfill your expectations.and who are the people you get angry with?the same person you love a lot and you are close to.
the very same person about whom everything you liked the same person is the center of your anger..i always used to ponder about this cos i always get angry with people who are close with me and fight a lot.
we are afraid to express our emotions to some x who doesnt mean anything to us but end up hurting loved ones.why does this happen? do we have the tendency to take loved ones for granted? or is it that we tend to vent out all our depressions and disappointments on them cos they are stuck with us?isit the simple privilege in thinking they will understand us? we are so cautious as to not to hurt the feelings of someone who doesn't make any difference to our lives but tend to slice the heart of loved ones with our knife like words...
what causes the change in us?i am clueless.do we stop considering the loved ones emotions or are we too naive to take them for granted?or is it the over protectiveness and affection that makes us to behave like this?
consider the case of being hurt..why is it that we get hurt by someone who doesn't mean anything to us at all and tend to get hurt ourselves and sulk?so many emotions and so conflicting in nature.the way we have to react to loved ones we do it for complete strangers and the vice versa.why does this happen?
may be we are forced to hide our emotions from strangers cos the world is like a wolf to pounce on our vulnerabilities , we cannot displease our bosses.true...but our loved ones??? are they to be used as buffers? or are our family sentiments and values decreasing..my mum used to tell me tolerance is decreasing with every generation.are we starting to prove it???i hope not.
i only hope this post will make to a difference to at least one person and their loved ones.and if it does...what else but peace :) !

patches:) the "loyal" dog ??

right from the time i can remember dogs have always captivated me,motivated me,i adored dogs. not breed specific but the word dog makes my heart melt:) people identify me as a dog person .and i have always been proud of it. when my little pom breed patches died,i was 10.not wanting to go through the emotional trauma of losing a pet again my parents said no to a new dog.but they had to give in to my pestering that they grudgingly( though secretly happy) brought home the latest addition in our family.a great dane pup..hardly 2 months old and clumsy with a pot belly filled with meat the poor fellow came inside trembling.my first reaction was disappointment.is that a dog really i asked ,much to the amusement of my dad,i poured over every book i could lay my hands on to know about greatdanes so that my pup got the best.then came the task of naming him.so many options..major, dushew, timmy, suddenly i noticed this little fella had white patches on his chest and paws.,,,exactly like the older patches.and voila,the new patches had come.sometimes i think its my old patches again come to us.silly or not,patches was again in the family and we were happy. the clumsy fella grew alarminly into a strong graceful gentle benevolent dog that he is now. ubt his face still holds the prankster rougish look it held when he was a pup.i know dogs are loyal and could be taught discipline, i wonder if he disciplined me or i disciplined him. my patches is the most gentlest being on earth that even when the next door street dog bites him he wags his tail.even when i most irritatingly wake him up from his slumber doesnt even growl but simply moves to a new place. some people break down when angry ..some break whatevers around them..being the latter i felt shame seeing patches. and i mellowed down. i grew to be patient caring understanding..is he here to teach me this i wonder. i am in awe as he has so much to offer and is so humble.there are loads that people have to learn from pets and i believe it now.. i read an article that said to live a happy life lead you life like a dog.. *even when scolded bound back with joy *bond with your pack *occassionally pamper yourself *be fit and walk lots *do something silly to laugh and make others laugh i cant remember reading something true as this.and looking at patches i wont say its a bad idea:)

my first post !

I had seen a Lotta my pals with blogs,easily pouring out words effortlessly writing what they wanted to.
may be i was inspired by it.i don't know.but the idea of having a blog to pen down my thoughts(rather frustration) was intriguing.and here i am.logged in a couple of days back and still thinking about what to write.
OK here goes i thought i will write about my first writing experience.sigh! am just sitting in front of the computer staring at the screen for once at a total loss of words.

people tell me when you are proposed or very happy or sad you are at a loss of words but what now i sigh:(...
and here i am only formatting what ever crap i have written so that at least it would keep me occupied:)
coming back to the topic i still wonder how i can bring my thoughts to words and make it flow zappppp like the others. hell no!
but am atleast happy that i am able to talk some nonsense and fill up this number of words. should thank my school jamming days i guess..
but one can be sure i have signed out with the satisfaction of atleast typing in some words as part of my first writing attempt in a blog :)
peace:)