love story part 13

sidharth was disturbed. his heart longed for diya but he was getting frustrated. diya had built a wall around her heart and refused to reason. he was getting angry when he kept losing out arguing with her, rationalising to make her come back. diya was hurt. he knew that but he didnt know how to let her udnerstand how he was not arvind.
with days rolling away, sid tried to speak to diya. contrary to the past, diya atleast spoke to sid normally.she often grew a barrier only when he broached the subject of them getting back together as a couple. sidharth decided to give her time to heal, yet he made sure he didnt let go of her to someone else. he knew no-one else could love her the way he did.
diya was again becoming incresingly confortable with sid, this time as a friend. he was once someone who knew her very well. sid and diya both discovered each other more as friends than they ever did as a couple.

date : 2009
sid: diya, do you realise how much i know you better now than before? man, we should have started out as friends.
diya: yes sid. true. i feel so confortable with you around at my back. you are a good friend than a possesive boyfriend :P
sid: but diya, what i wanted was a relationship, now that we know each other well.
diya: sid, lets not talk of a relationship.

it happened every time. every one time sid wanted a relationship diya stopped talking. it frustrated sid to no end and sometime he spoke words he regretted.

sid: whats wrong with me diya? am i not the same person you fell in love with?
diya: no sid, you are not. you do know how much i hate smoking, drinking and one night stands dont you?
the sid i fell in love with, didnt do any of it. i dont know the sid i talk to now a days.
sid: well as if you are the same.
diya: what do you mean?
sid: you've been with someone else too diya. dont act all saintly.
diya: sid, am hurt by that sentence. nothing happened.
sid: ya right.

every time sid lost his temper and spoke something, diya felt terribly hurt. sid was frustrated. he wanted his diya back. diya was frustrated too.she wanted her sid back. both were searching for their own dopplegangers. sid finally decided to open up to diya.

he made her listen to how he had spoken to his parents, had given up on one night stands, smoking and drinking and how he was the same sid she fell in love with. sid recalled one incident from the past when they were in a relationship. as the calls were STD, sid used to skip lunch to save up for the calls he made to diya to speak longer. diya was moved as she heard all this stories from sid. she cried. for the first time it was tears of both happiness and love and sorrow of missing the person.
diya: sid, why didnt you tell me all this before?
sid: i wanted you to realise am still the same without me telling. but you never understood me diya. so what do you say? get back to me?
diya: sid! i cant.
sid: but why?
diya: sid you only talk about things from your perspective. i have quit my job. and i dont have any bodys support.my parents are not talking to me and its taking me time to set my career right. how can i think of a relationship now. maybe you ll be better if you start dating someone else.
sid: talk to your mom. this time around, i want you to tell your parents and friends that you are dating me before you get together with me?
diya: but why?
sid: so that you dont run away from me again. you ll be tied down.
diya: is that what you think of me sid?

sid immediately knew it was too late to correct his blunder. diya had shut herself again. nothing happened till may 2010. diya and sid were still friends. sid was diya's best friend and diya was sid's love of his life. it was diya's birthday. the last birthday she was spending at home as she was all ready to leave home to fly to the USA for her masters. it was sid who with her through thick and thin, encouraging her and supporting her every decision. deep down, diya knew that if she was doing her masters, it was because of one person. sid. the one person she always loved despite all that happened and the one person to whom she couldnt profess her love. sid couldnt be more happier. and he c ouldnt love anyone more, than his diya. the one person who still spoke to him inspite of him talking bull shit to her. the one person who didnt take to heart his spiteful words but still understood his real intentions. things were going smooth between diya and sid.

diya confessed to madhu before she left.
diya: this is one guy i left. i didnt try to sort out the issues when i broke the relationship off madhu. and now when i know the kinda mistake i made after arvind's episode. how can i get back to sid. is it not shameless on my part to do that? sid deserves better than me madhu. i cannot shamelessly go back to him and torture him with my presence.
madhu: sweetie, he loves you. he wont think of it that way.
diya: no madhu, i thought so too. but you know the words you say when you are angry are the ones that come from your heart and whenever hes angry, all that he can talk about is my past with arvind. he s not over the fact that i was with someother guy madhu. i cannot take that all my life. yes arvind was a mistake but i dont need a reminder from sid about it. he wont be happy with me madhu.
madhu: do you love him?
diya: (remains silent)
madhu: speak up you idiot. do you?
diya: (breaks down) more than anything else madhu. always have. the first time i came away from him because he didnt trust me. now am coming away from him because i love him too much and i know he deserves someone better. someone with whom he ll be happy.
madhu: diya. i dont know what to say. come here babes. (hugs diya as she silently cries)

sid knew very well that diya was in love with him. he tried reasoning, sarcasm, anger, and what not to get her back. diya for some reason didnt come back to him. all her reasons seemed like crap to him. he knew he couldnt go on for ever like this. thats when megha proposed to sid.

sid had completed his dual degree masters in bio tech in delhi and flown to germany for his doctrate. a fellow doctrate was megha who had fallen for sid a long time back. sid occasionally used to talk about diya and how he couldnt get her back to megha. and now she had proposed. on side was megha with whom he could start a new life and on the other was his own diya. the one person he couldnt stop loving and couldnt see as someone elses.

madhu took it as her job to try and reason with diya. she convinced diya that sid was the man for her. it took her a months time to reason it out with diya. diya slowly was getting convinced that she wanted to get back to sid. she spoke to her parents about him. the vasishts never had any good opinion about him but they saw the love in diyas eyes. they relented. diya was happy that she did what sid wanted. - speaking to her parents. she was about to fly to USA the next night and she called up sid to tell him the happy news.

diya:sid am leaving tomorrow. its all because of you sid. i love you.
sid: love you too babe. i need to tell you something.
diya: really? even i have something to tell you. something very happy. oh how i wish you are here now.
sid: what is it?
diya: you go first sid. what is it?
sid: do you remember how you used to tell me that i should start seeing someone else? well there is one megha who proposed.
diya: (shocked) and?
sid: am confused diya. you never tell me if you love me. if you tell me something once and for all i will respond to meghas proposal.
diya: do you like her?
sid: well ya, i do. but..
diya: (feigning happiness) what are you waiting for? go tell her you idiot.
sid: you think so?
diya: absolutely.
sid: thanks diya. you are the best. (hangs up)

diya put the phone down. she locked her room and sat on the couch. tears silently plonked down on the floor from her eyes. she hurt beyond words. she had lost him again. she cried all night.

she went to meet madhu before she left to the airport. she told her all that happened. madhu was angered. how could he fall in love with some girl so soon?
diya just smiled for everything. madhu cried to see her friend this way and the fact that she was going half the world away from her. diya cried too. to leave her parents, madhu and all the memories here.

date: november 2010
place: stanford univ

diya: madhuuuuuuuuuuuuu.... its been long since i called you. how are you.
madhu: babeeee... love ya. been long.enjoying?
diya: you know me. am fine. having a ball of a time
madhu: ball of a time.? i know you babe. still feeling bad huh?
diya: guess who i met here. tom cruiseeee.
madhu: babe. are you truly happy? (in a serious concerned voice) you should have told sid of your love.
diya: (wry smile) and what? put him through a life time of misery thinking about arvind and me?
i know sid better than sid himself madhu. he loved me like noone else can but he was never over arvind. he was in a dilemma.
madhu: but you are making yourself unhappy.
diya: madhu. i love sid. i love sid so much that i only want his happiness. even when i know its not going to be with me.
madhu: diya....
diya: dont tell anything madhu. love is not just being with the person. should i hate him now that he's moved on? i would still love him. more than ever. knowing that he is happy makes me happy. i hurt him once madhu. and i wouldnt want to hurt him again. my heart will always be around him. my classes are starting love. will call later.

madhu was contemplating about what diya said as she put the phone down. she was proud of her diya. she looked back at the entire sid-diya episode. 8 years. one hell of a time. long time too. but she knew diya was right. diya's words kept echoing. i love him so much that i want his happiness even if its not going to be with me. madhu closed her eyes as a tear creeped out.

diya was sad yet content that sid was finally at peace. he would not need to worry that it was his fault that diya faced arvind. wouldnt have to feel bad for diya and can atlast be happy with a fresh new start.

well folks thats how the story ends. sid is now with megha. diya is still in love. with sid. but is happy knowing that he is happy with megha. and as for me. i shall take leave now :) hope you guys enjoyed reading about sid and diya

love story part 12

sidharth krishnan finally decided to confront his parents. his heart had ached enough. his eyes had cried enough. he had messed up enough. he had had enough. he knew he wanted diya. he sat down and discussed with his dad. it took him time. a long time indeed. Mr and Mrs krishnan could see that their eye candy had indeed grown up. Mr.krishnan realized his mistake of going overboard with his enthusiastic detective skills when he knew it had cost his son - his dream - his love.Mrs.Krishnan had seen enough of her son losing the glitter in his eyes. they accepted diya with their heart. they now wanted what sid wanted. diya - the one girl who would complete their family now. sid knew he now didnt have any obstacles to get her.

diya was in a deep slumber, when she got to hear the news. some random person, had decided to end his life. the reason - he couldnt keep pace with work lifestyle. diya was disturbed. this was not the first incident ever since she joined work and this was definitely not going to be the last. she took once good look at her life. she realised that she was working like a maniac to forget sid and arvind but in the end was forgetting her happiness, her life and the very passion she had for life. she knew she wanted out. she decided to wait for sometime.

date : dec 31 2008

diya was watching the skies - stars over shadowed by the lively lights and colors of crackers. diya was lighting a 'diya' in the open air audi where new year celebrations were going on. her phone kept singing 'if you are not the one'. it was sid. diya ignored the call, adjusting her gagra choli and getting ready for the fun filled dandiya. her partner was aarav, a fun loving cheerful team mate of hers. thats when it happened. the music started and people slowly started moving rhythmically and diya and aarav started dancing along with the others. the dance picked up tempo and suddenly diya found herself lying on the floor. aarav had fallen on top of her pushing her to the ground. he had fainted. he was rushed to the hospital where he was treated for severe ulcer, low BP and immunity. diya remembered the countless days aarav a nd she had had night outs slogging in front of the computer. she knew she was done. she picked up the phone. she knew what she wanted to do now and it certainly was not in IT.

date : feb 2009

things were not too great at diya's place. her fathers business had suffered a set back and she was about to quit her job. the atmosphere was tense. her parents and relatives had verbalised their unhappiness in her decision and it was very difficult to get even an iota of support from them all. diya was going through turmoil all over again. the very parents she idolised now seemed distant as she was left alone to go through her decisions.the tension that was running low for quite sometime burst out suddenly and resulted in a verbal tiff between diya and Mr.vasisht. they stopped talking. diya felt more lonely though she was surrounded by people.

date : august 2009
it was her final day at microsoft. diya was given a small farewell and she was coming out of her office. her father had refused to talk till then. diya called him up to keep him posted not expecting the words to follow. an already preoccupied father burst out words he would later repent on the phone. diya was shocked. she was not expecting her father telling her not to get back home without a job. she didnt know how to react. her phone rang again. it was sid as usual.
diya couldnt stop crying hearing sid's voice.

place : mocha cafe

sid rushed to meet diya as soon as he heard her cry on the phone. he couldnt wait for her to come. sid was blown away to see diya after ages. she looked fabulous now than ever yet she looked melancholic. it took his breath away to see her eyes, yet her eyes were lifeless. where was the spark in diya? where is the diya he fell in love with? it pained him too his diya in such a shape. diya fell into his arms as soon as she saw him. sid was not expecting diya to hug him. his heart skipped a beat. it took a moment to realise that his diya was in his arms. he felt complete. he wrapped his arms around her vowing not to let her get away.
diya didnt realise she was hugging sid. the last few months had been so horrible for her that when she saw someone she knew and was once very close to, she had hugged him without thinking. she drew herself away from him and looked him in the eye. he had changed a lot in these years too.

he didnt let go of her hands. they sat to talk about life and everything else happening around them. sid couldnt stop wondering about the changes in diya. the bubbly blabber mouth who spoke nineteen to the dozen was replaced by the eerie calm and measured words diya now sitting in front of him. the goofy tomboy was missing. a feminine beautiful diya was in front of him. diya too was noticing the changes in sid. he was more talkative now and a little boastful. diya noticed how he kept fidgeting with his mobile.

sid: so how are you?
diya: been better :)

and there it started.. two people brought together by destiny, but gone different paths and again together... chattering away as it started drizzling outside....

what ensued the following months was a love-hate relationship between sid and diya.sid kept asking diya to come back and diya was dodging a relationship. this angered sid. he understood diya but he was not able to rationalise.

date : dec 2009

sid: hullo diya? i ve been asking you for a long time. i still did not get an answer.
diya: i did tell you sid. i dont want a relationship. its a mess right now. i quit my job and am aiming for my masters now. things are not smooth at home and am so uncertain about my career. i cant afford to mess up another relationship now and the way things are right now if i get into one its sure to be a disaster.
sid: but diya. its me. we've been in a relationship already
diya : sid but its not been a successful one. has it?
sid: you B*****. you are a F****** second hand. and i am giving you a chance though i dont accept second hands. is that not enough for you?
diya: sid. what?
sid: you've still got the same attitude. go to hell.
diya : $#$%$

diya hung the phone and stormed off for a walk. she was furious. at herself. for letting in sid. she felt miserable. not having anybody to talk to and having her heart being played with over and over again. she decided she was never going to talk to sid.
sid couldnt hate himself more for talking bullshit. he didnt realise what made him speak so. he knew just onething. he was not sure how to get diya back.

two souls who loved each other but couldnt tell it out without hurting the other. life is indeed funny!

love story - part 11

Date: may 2008

Place: ode coffee shop

Ode was known for its ambiance and the number of young couples who come there. Diya was seated in the farthest couch, lurking in the shadows, sitting alone and sipping a cold coffee. Te cool liquid quenched her parched throat and a small frown on her eye brows and the occasional pout of her lips and her dreamy eyes were shouting out “lost in thoughts”. She was hurt. Twice she had ventured into love, pretending to be brave, but had bitten the dust. Her heart pounded with misery. She was not able to breathe as grief choked her. The clouds rambled above as her head hurt.

Daniel bedingfield singing, “If you are not the one”, from her phone, shook her out of her reverie.

Diya: hullo

Diya? Happy bday baby. Please come back to me.

Diya: Arvind?

No... It’s me Sid….did I ever tell you how beautiful you look? How your eyes speak to me?

diya: sid? is this some kind of a joke? (Hangs up)

Diya gulps down the last of her coffee and waits for the cheque. Someone touches her shoulder. Diya turns back to look into his face smiling at her, his eyes searching hers.

Place: madhu’s house

madhu: so your highness just decided to run away? diya, why did you run away

diya: why? you want to know why? madhu. sid is the last person I want to see now. didn’t I tell you already? he called me up and had the nerve to ask me if arvind dumped me. I don’t want someone to sneer at me right now madhu. so spare me this guilt trip

madhu: you idiot. this is not a guilt trip. you running away from sid is only soothing his ego. you want me to talk to him and ask him to scoot?

diya : (remains silent)

madhu: dude?

diya applied for a transfer to gurgaon and flew there the following month. she wanted to start fresh. little did she know things would never be normal for quite sometime. her long working hours kept her busy not giving her time to think much about sid or arvind. she was getting over the person but arvinds words kept haunting her. arvind had spoken in a lowly language during break up and the coffee day incident , though soothing, didnt do much to help ease the hurt. she decided to give time - time.

diya was losing concentration at work and she decided to take a break and go visit delhi. she went with her colleagues and she smiled for the first time in a long time. she was standing admiring a small pendant at the chor bazaar. the design gave her goose bumps. it was a small heart frame within which cupid stood with the initial 's'. Sid had given her a similar pendant. she felt her eyes moisten and her neck suddenly felt cold with the gush of air. she heard a whisper . so you do like me huh? come back baby.

she felt she was hallucinating, remembering what sid spoke to her at ODE. she placed the pendant back and turned into sid. sidharth krishnan - the guy who captivated her heart so fully that it still hurt to see him. she was shocked initially and sid smiled at her expression.

sid: babe, did you forget delhi's my place? or tell me did you come for me? i knew you still loved me

diya: her eyes moist. stands still

sid: ( sobering up) how are you diya? you are still my baby girl. come back to me sweetums.

diya: (finally finding words) why do you want me back anyway sid? theres too much water under the bridge now.

sid: i still see you as my diya. i can never seen you as someone else's

diya: walks away.

sid: pulls her arm. listen diya. this time around - it's my control. ill give you 10 days time. come back to me. or else..

diya: flaring up... else what?

sid: ill make it 20 :) now go ahead honey. i dont want to look handsome like SRK holding your hand in the bazaar with bangles like in Kabhi kushi kabhi ghum

diya couldnt help but smile at his PJ. sid saw her smile. he knew diya was smiling after a long time. his girl was looking so sad, so lifeless and so without a spark. he missed the original diya. the one who he fell in love with. and he knew he wanted her back.

sid realized he had been foolish in the way he handled diya the first time. their separation taught him how big a gift diya was in his life and this time he was ready to get her back. for life.

diya walked into her hotel room and plonked on the couch turning the tv on. SRK was romancing Kajol in K3G. she thought of Sid's sentence and smiled. but her heart was shut. she didnt want love. no more.